The truth.

This is weird.
i hvnt blogged in FOREEVER.
so yeah, this is like my Spare blog.
go to my tumblr.
glitterandalcohol.tumblr.com

Anyways.
Im sick of it.
It: its this feeling that, IDK. its just, when I go everywhere, gigs, malls, shows,
theres always the crowd where im suppose to belong to, but im not.
Its like, me being the alternative person, and they are tooo, but theyre not my friends.
And when i look at their friends and their photos, Im thinking, hey, why am I not a part of them.
I know them, weve talked, weve hung, but im not a part of them, and its weird because were the same, you know what i mean?
I mean, Im sick of being the odd one out always.
Really. I dont belong anywhere.
When im in singapore, these stupid fucks call me malaysian.
When im in malaysia they call me singaporean.
I JUST WANT TO BELONG.
I am so sick of being different.
okay, THE TRUTH.
Why is my hair only one-coloured now days? because im so sick of being diff.
Why do i use only up eyeliner? because i wanna be like everyone else.
I mean, diff ppl hang out with their own type.
I hang out with different form different ppl.
Im not saying i need new freinds, I LOVE MY FRIENDS.
they mean so much to me.
YOU KNOW, no matter what i do, I DONT FIT IT>
and, i use to love not fitting in, I used to DGAF abt all this shit.
But, its affecting me really badly now.
Its this feeling of unwantedness, i just wanna be normal.
And fit in.
I cant take staying in malaysia., its easy fer you guys to say, " its okay, yer mom is the one who drives what"
NO , its not just that.
The fact that, I used to love school so much.
Until i had to wake up so early and get into a jam every fucking morning.
The joy that i get when my mom says i dont have to go to school tommorow.
\Im like wtf, its just a day without school. WHY AM I SO HAPPY?
the only thing that makes me really happy now is just those few words.
i just, cant take it.
and theres no one i can talk to about this and, i swear one day, im just gonna breakdown.
How long do you really expect me to keep bottling up everything.
I just cant do it.
Its hard, really.
Its not cool, its not tiring, its not fun, its not stressing. Its HARD.
really.
I am SO DIFFERENT.
i just wanna be someone else.
i hate being my ugly self.
Im not worth anything.
Nobody wants me.
Im annoying.
As far as I know, my parents just wanna get rid of me.
My sister, keeps doing better than me in everyfuckingthing.
ITS SO ANNOYING.
and yknow, my heartfelt thanks go to these people Ive met in malaysia; Johor , terrenganu , Merang and Lang sari.
Reallly, you guys picked me rather then my sister.
I can bet on mylife no one in singapore would ever do that.
My sister is too hot too resist, for Singaporeans.

Bitch,

Havent been bloggin forever.
Few updates.
Depression took over.
got my injections.
gg to cambodia.


So two bitches.
Two of the most fucked up girls i know.
I hate them.
Bitch Aa.
Bitch Bs.

Bitch Aa.
Oooh, hooray you, your gg here, yer gg there.
Yer craving this, yer craving that.
Do i look like i give a fuck?
HELL NO.
Honey, okay yeah.
You rant abt, how guys dont like you and shit.
You think yer unlucky.
EH FUCKER.
chi bai, your mothers puss puss, lah ey.
EVERY FUCKING GUY SEE YOU ON THE STREET, WANNA FUCK YOU.
Every guy i know, WORSHIPS THE FUCK OUTTA YOU.
Their like oooh, wow, so hot, so hot.
EVERY FUCKING GUY also say, when im ard you, got this special feeling.
OH FUCK THAT.
what feeling? erection? because yer sucha slut?
PLEASE. the only thing you are is a big poser.
You tryna be singaporean. but you cant. because yer not.
You go back to yer own country, yer just like everyone else.
You come here, get treated like a fucking goddess.
CHI BAI, your lips like pussy. NOT KISSABLE.
and fuck that shit, YOUR UGLY FUGLY .
Your fucked up whore. YOU JUST ARE.
And please, why the fuck, every guy i like, seem to like you?
WHY?
YOU KNOW WHY?! COS YER A SLUT.
And you know why you only have like, a handful of chick friends?
BECAUSE NONE OF US GIRLS, like sluts.
So obv, you and yer 'posse' are all sluts.
Get a life.


Bitch Bs.
Oh hello, have you stole my new guy already?
Or are you still tryna do it.
Eh babe, dont try to add and flirt with a guy who you dont know and found on yer friends profile can? because, I WAS FLIRTING WITH HIM.
you know why? because i knew him. because HE was flirting back.
You have a malay face.
black bitch, yer dark skinned, ducked lips and just plain fucked up hair.
Dont try to talk to me about something, because i dont care.
i just dont.
And hello, yes, I STARTED weariing it.
Dont come up to me, and say oh im getting it too.
No. Okay,, Fucking copy.
And know, you just tryna get into my scene?
because guys in my scene are hot?
eh babe, sorry, GET LOST.
This is, what? MY. scene.
M-Y. dumbass.
Dont know what MY means?
Stupid is it?
And your friend, is just a big wannabe-prettty.
PLEASE, she looks like a sick puffy face anoroxic patient.
HAH. suck cocks babe.


Okay done.
FUCK you both.
I wanna kill you both.
YOU BOTH JUST INTEFERRE ON MY LOVE LIFE.
FUCKYOU.



Love,
Hannah

The very last moment in time.

http://bringhannahthehorizon.tumblr.com/
GO GOGO GOGOGOGOG



Im afraid to fall in love.
But, the more i think of love, ther more i want to fall.
I tried fergetting it.
But, hunney, evrywhere, its just couples.
Fuck them.
Why do they have to be so goddamn lucky?
Anyways, if anyone actaully reads my blog,
sorry, i havent posted in a while.
ive been, not myself lately and yknow exam stress,
yep.


I have tumblr now.
Im hooked on twitter.
And, Justin bieber fans, FUCK OFF.
ehehehehhe,
I love yall.

Kay, you wanna know smthing?
I HAVE TO PEE.

So, anything new?
You know, im like just sitting down here, staring at the screen.
I STONED BABY.
fer like, a long time.



Aaah, yawn


XO

Screw Coral Secondary.

I hate my falliciously stupid school
I hate my lackadaisical family.
I hate my narcissistic __________.



"oh shes so beautiful"
"wah knn, heaven on earth"
"whoa, check out that ass"
"wow , SHES SO PRETTY"
"OMG LAWAAAAA!"
"OMGgg, SO gorEGEOUS"
"HOtTEST THING IVE EVER SEEN"


OKAY, I GET IT.
SHE THAT, WHATEVER.
DO I LOOK LIKE I GIVE A FUCK?!
NO.


fuck school.
Ima fail so many things.
chi bai, i cant cope lah knn.
School, til 2.15, got reahearsals till six + reach home ard 8.
FUCKING TIRED.
DO I FUCKING LOOK LIKE I HAVE THE FUCKING TIME TO DO HOMEWORK.
screw yall lah,
WHY FUCKING GIVE SO MUCH HOMEWORK.
KNN CCB

No fucking reasons WHY.

I want this fucking shirt , chibai.
hehehehheh
:D
Wah, KNN, CONFIRM MUST GO SIAL. but its like lagi lame
LOL.


Awesome right?
I bought it with mommys creddy card.
from DROPDEAD.
AAAH.
My lifes ahmazing ya?
I have Vans, and now this!?
YAY.
I just got sent out.
So ill get it in like 2 or 3 weeks time!
HURRAH.
I sweaar, ima gonna walk ard town with that thing in my hand.

SO today, ran 2.4 .
omg, now like every inch of my body is hurting
and i have like BRUTAL rehearsals for this week and next week.
Oh cruel Lord, just let me die.
So, umm, i should do my homework now.
-_____-
yeooo.


So like, I AM IN FUCKING LOVE WITH TOM SYKES.
HES MINE.
hehehehe


Xo
Hannah

More pictures tommorow.

FAVOURITE PICTURE.
:D
Will upload rest tommorow.

I never liked spelling the word tommorow.



Xxx
Hannah Artaud Maclaire

The Stars Will Cry The Blackest Tears Tonight.

Lead Singer hold me tight
I only have you for 1 night
You know exactly what to do
To make me fall in love with you.

WTF, WHATS WRONG WITH TWITTER.
TT is BIEBERGASM?! WTF.
WTF.
JUSTIN BIEBER, PLEASE JUST DIE.
PLEASE.



OMG, WHY?
I just dont see the pretty in her.
So I have like, IDK

Some kind of, IDK. bloggin blockage.
I dont feel like blogging.
ugh fuck.

So wait, before i go.
Mom, said my punishment was i cant kluar on friday.
CHIBAI.
yep













Xoxo Loves.
Hannah Artaud Maclaire♥